Yesterday was Blondie’s 7th birthday. The agreement says that we get her the entire day, but because of school and because I wanted her to have a chance to celebrate with her mother and siblings, we only took her from 5-8pm. I guess you can’t tell from the blog, but I do things for Mull’s benefit more often than you might think even though it’s never acknowledged. The truth is that Blondie would have been thrilled to have us take her to school and pick her up and have her birthday with just us. In a very hateful, selfish way, I’m kind of sorry now that I didn’t, but I’ll get to that in a minute.
Paladin and I had been working on a surprise for Blondie for a while, but we weren’t getting any call backs from a local horse riding ranch. Then, at nearly the last minute on Wednesday evening, they finally called. We’d been telling Blondie that we were going to take her to dinner at one of the 3 sit-down places here in town, but instead we managed to get a private riding lesson set up for last night. We threw a burger kids meal at her, and tossed her in the car along with a new pink cowgirl hat. Blondie just talked and talked as usual and most of it was about fire.
It was a weird conversation actually. She said something about us spending a lot of money (we’d stopped to get her a bottle of water at the store) and then it segued into, “I told Mom that you are paying for the window.” It took me a second to remember that she was talking about a conversation we’d had with them about getting out of their bedroom at the trailer if there is a fire. Their mother tells them that the window won’t open in their room, and we told them to break it if they had to get out. When they told us ‘Mom would get mad’ about it (when isn’t she mad?), we told them not to worry about it and that we’d pay for the window. It wasn’t the only weird conversation either. On the way home, Blondie said, “You know some people get to stay with their Dad’s all the time” and then, “Some people’s Dad’s don’t even send them a card or see them.” Paladin had brought her a card and a rose to Mull’s but her real presents and her Littlest Pet Shop cake are for tonight. I’m not sure what’s trying to get out of Blondie’s head, yet. Something is going on in there though. It always makes me worry about her.
Anyhow, we got to the ranch and drove up and got out. Blondie was excited to see all the animals: several dogs including a very randy St. Bernard that was repeatedly pile driving a tiny litte Australian shepard (I mean he KEPT at it) and a goat that kept rubbing up against Paladin and I to be petted when it wasn’t chasing after another of the dogs. Man, I wish I’d had a video camera. :( Blondie was still completely clueless, however. I finally explained to her that she was there to learn to REALLY ride a horse. She lit up. Daddy and I hung back and let the trainer take over from there. That lady must have the patience of Job because Blondie didn’t stop talking the entire time. She put Blondie through some exercises and had the kid working the horse with nothing but the reins in no time. I wish we could afford to send all three of the little girls to one of their summer camps because they could really benefit from learning to work hard at taking care of the horses and from the riding. With the straight riding lessons, they learn to curry the horse before riding and put away the tack, but they don’t get to feed and muck out stalls and get down to the bones of owning a horse.
At any rate, Blondie LOVED it. She kept asking if she could come back again, and I told her that she could, but she’d have to earn the money herself in the same way that Bell and Martian earn money by doing extra things around the house. Sadly, she kept complaining that she was too little and shouldn’t have a job yet. I tried to tell her otherwise, but it was like talking to a brick wall. It’s yet another Mull thing; she can’t afford to bribe the little girls AND the teenagers. Maybe I can get through to Blondie this weekend. The regular classes are only $15 each and that’s not so horrible that we couldn’t let all three little ones go IF they work for the priviledge. I’m doing my darnedest to instill a work ethic in these kids and it looks like I’m succeeding occasionally.
Martian got an F on his last report card and he’d been warned that an F would mean no computer and no video games at our house (Mull could care less). It’s been killing him. lol But, his grades are SO much better this semester that he might even manage a B Honor Roll. That tells me that his and Bell’s D Honor Roll addiction is more about them not bothering to care how they do in school. I’m definitely going to expect more from them in the future! I knew they were too smart to be doing so poorly. Bell is looking forward to spending the entire day with us on her birthday, and I plan to put the bug in her ear that we won’t feel right taking her out of school if she’s making D’s. Yes, I am the evil stepmother. :)
I wish last night could just have been about Blondie, but alas…
While Blondie was out in the riding arena, Paladin told me that Mull was pooched out a bit and he’d asked her. Yep, Mull is pregnant for the 7th time. Who had February in the pool? What does she do? Does she freakin’ store the sperm inside her body for later use? She had to have gotten pregnant IMMEDIATELY upon marrying Blind Boy. I’m going to guess that she’s planning on either a home birth or showing up at an emergency room at the last minute. She’s paranoid in the extreme about government intervention and there’s no way they can afford the medical care out of pocket. Either way, we are laying down the law with her this time. The minute she goes into labor the kids come here and none of that farming them out like she pulled last time. We are warning her ahead of time about that and about the fact that we will NOT be lying to the children about her pregnancy. We will be going over every stage of it with them and I’m thinking that I need to buy them one of the books about baby development. I know it’s not really my place, but Mull’s already intimated to Paladin that she’s trying to hide this from them and I’m not going through 5 months of “if you drink too much water, you get fat”. I STILL hear that every few weeks!
I don’t know who to feel sorry for at this point. Apparently, the pregnancy did nothing to sway Blind Boy’s family since Mull must have known she was pregnant at Christmas and BB’s family STILL didn’t want anything to do with her which makes me wonder if Blind Boy was lamenting his father to Blondie (hence the “some kids don’t even get a card” talk). I feel so sorry for Bell because here is yet another child for her to raise; I can always tell who is really doing the parenting at Mull’s because when the kids are with us they repeatedly slip up and call me by that person’s name. Then I did the math and realized that Mull will be popping in August; so either this kid will show up close to my birthday or to Indie’s. I think Indie is the one I feel sorriest for already. When we call over there, we hear her desperately trying to get her mother’s attention and to be fair, Mull has paid slightly more attention to her than she used to due to a combination of things: Blondie is getting older and doesn’t need to be Mull’s shadow anymore and Indie has grown so much that she’s less a baby but still a toddler (i.e. less work for Mull to be around her). Indie will once again be out of luck. It makes me want to cry.
Paladin also makes me want to cry. He didn’t mean to. He was hyped up over just hearing about Mull’s pregnancy and while Blondie was in the riding arena, he started chatting about it. I love him but he can be extremely clueless. He should have gotten the clue when I wasn’t talking or looking at him or the look on my face, but he just kept going on and on. “Wonder what she’ll name this one? Maybe she’ll just give up and start numbering them. Hey, this is lucky number seven! I wonder how many more she’s planning on. Let’s see she’s thirty fi…” I stopped him dead there. I already have the words “lucky number seven” burrowing into my brain. I don’t need anyone doing the math on Mull’s age/pregnancy ratio.
I was still numb though. Right up until I typed this. Now, I have tears dripping down my cheek. That’s probably a good thing. I was starting to think I wasn’t able to feel anymore. The doctor wanting to biopsy cells didn’t even make me flinch. Not even PMS had made me cry this week. I guess I can feel when it hurts enough. I just so want to leave. I want to see the kids, but I don’t want the baby conversations. I don’t want to have to explain the miracle of life when it’s housed in someone I wouldn’t let care for a cat. I want to go someplace quiet and dark and sleep.